Drawing my own map

I am a homing pigeon. I suppose it comes from a childhood of moving ALL the time (I’m 24 and have moved 16 times). You see, if I go away, whether it’s down the road to my friends or 300 miles to visit family, I cannot WAIT to get back home.

But recently that’s changed.

I feel like I can’t wait to get away from home. I’ve lived in this Scottish city for 12 years which is longer than I’ve lived in any city, and in a way it will always be home for me. But I’m BORED! I feel the itch in my feet telling me to do something with my life other than work-write-sleep lather-rinse-repeat. Don’t get me wrong, I love my job and the little family our office has become. And I don’t just love writing, I NEED to write. I also wouldn’t say no to a bit more sleep ๐Ÿ˜‰

Except I’ve noticed that I’m living day to day, week to week, and there aren’t any challenges here any more. I’m comfortable, and I used to think I was okay with that because change puts the fear of God into me. Then I start to think of going back to college, or moving somewhere new with new opportunities and new adventure and not seeing the same 72,000 people every damn day. The only thing scary than change it nothing changing. Working in a city where everybody knows everybody else’s business and a job that I can do with my eyes closed doesn’t hold the same appeal as the great unknown. Of course, I might have been watching way too much Gossip Girl lately and become way too envious of the shenanigans they get up but that’s just it. I don’t want to pass through life living vicariously through books or movies or what so-and-so is doing with what’s-his-face. I want my own adventure, I want to drawย my own map, and I want to be challenged.

Hopefully this blog post is the beginning of my new adventure.

8 thoughts on “Drawing my own map

  1. Rachel

    You’ve moved quite a lot! I live in a big city and wouldn’t even know what it felt like to know everyone in town. I can see why you’d want a change but I’ve also been sad that I live in such anonymity. Also, I totally understand your thoughts on living vicariously through TV and books. It’s nice to get out there and live a life of your own, too. Hope you get everything sorted, Rebekah! :)

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    1. Rebekah Post author

      It’s a decent-sized city but it’s very small at the same time haha as soon as you meet someone new you find out which school they went to, where they’ve worked before and somehow end up with a long-lost relative! Thanks, Rachel :) I’ll start with little adventures and build up to a big one!

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  2. Rita @ Weaving Pages

    Rebekah, no matter what you do, I wish you the best of luck in succeeding! I hope you find that adventure you’re looking for, and that you follow it with lots of happiness and joy. We’ll all be hear looking forward to hearing what you do- Go for it! :) xx

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  3. Jasprit

    I know how you feel Rebekah, I’ve moved three times, but still lived in the same city, so I would definitely like a change of scenery once in a while. I love it when I’m able to visit London and get lost in the hustle and bustle of it all, I do sometimes consider living there or just moving away from the UK completely, I wouldn’t mind that either!

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    1. Rebekah Post author

      Can you imagine living somewhere with a decent climate? That would be HEAVEN! London has so many fantastic opportunities, especially with book events. Embrace the adventure and go for it ๐Ÿ˜€

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  4. tonyalee

    When my husband joined the Army, I was excited to move and start over somewhere. But then we moved again, and I hate to start over again. It become this cycle and all I wanted was to STOP. Well I got my wish and I have that itch to move again, so I know exactly what you mean!

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    1. Rebekah Post author

      My dad was in the RAF so I totally relate haha it gets to a point where you don’t even bother unpacking any more. I think we’re just gluttons for punishment ๐Ÿ˜›

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